I got my first dog 6 years ago,(HWV) shortly follow by a second(patterdale) 12 months later, then a third(springer) 12 months after that.
After seeing shooting companions and friends loose dogs to illness/accidents/old age over the years and seeing different reactions and emotions, I always wondered how I'd react when it was my turn.
After receiving a phone call last night to tell me my dad had lost the terrier while walking her and the springer for me as I was away working, it didn't concern me as she often disappears into cover but not for long and not far away.
Anyway I got another call 2 hours later to tell me they'd found her dead at the side of a dual carriageway about 300 yards from where she went missing.
My dad was extremely upset but he hadn't done anything different to what he's done a 100 time before while I'm away, she either panicked and tried to head for home or chased something.
The only plus to it was she was killed cleanly with a blow to the head.
Going back to how it feels. It's f#€king horrible. And to loose her in that way at only 5 makes it even worse.