Well right now I am well and truly "bricking it"! I've been awake all night with silly/worrying thoughts going through my head.
I have been quite ill recently and have been in and out of hospital for the last 3 months, twice rushed in after collapsing with serious chest pains. I have had all sorts of tests and scans and have been told that I have to have either a couple of stents or a heart by-pass and have been booked in for an angiogram on the 1st of October to decide which.
However I got a phone call yesterday telling me that my Cardiac Consultant had "fast tracked" me and I must be in hospital this morning. No explanation as to why the sudden rush, just that I had to go in this morning. I don't know if this is just a "numbers game" where they have to see a certain number of patients each month or if they have to do so many proceedures each month or if they have found something that needs more urgent treatment.
The mind can do some silly things at times and bring all sorts of scenarios into your head when faced with this so let's hope that things are not as serious as some of the stupid thoughts that have been going round in my head all night, but right at this time and moment I don't mind admitting that I am quite worried!
Oh well, that's me off for a quick shower and change ready to leave for the hospital.
Wish me luck please!