Scots_stalker
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i know there are threads on this elsewhere but id just like to tell you my story about depression and my fac
it was in the summer of 2009 that my daughter , leigh contracted rotavirus whilst in hospital , what follow was 8 weeks of sheer hell as she slowly went down hill in yorkhill intensive care unit in glasgow , at one piont the doctor was talking of a 15% chance of survival and asking about consent to revive ,,
slowly but surely leigh turned a corner and 12 weeks after she was admitted to hospital she was allowed home, now during this time i didnt work, susan didnt either , and as you would expect ,bill mounted up and there was no money coming in , funnily enough at the time when leigh was in hospital i wasnt depressed , worried yes but depressed no , this came later when things were better , leigh was back at school and we were back at work ,
rerunning things in my mind , and fretting that it would happen again i got lower and lower , and of course i would hide this from everyone , instead id take the landrover to the remotest part of the farm and cry my eyes out for hours , only to return home as if everything was normal , i knew i needed help but i was afraid they would take my guns from me , i dont drink or smoke , my shooting and the countryside are my only vices,
this went on for months till one day i broke down at work and again at home , and susan called our doctor who saw me right away , i remember sitting down and telling her that i didnt want to hurt myself , or anyone else but i wasnt coping very well , she asked me a few questions and said i was suffering from depression and prescribed some pills which i took for 6 months and then was slowly weaned off them ,
now this all happened mid term on my fac , two years later it came up for renewal ,and of course i told them everything , the civvy who came to do my interview gave me some raised eyebrows when i told her, i even went and saw my doctor about it , ( she said she had no hesitation in saying i was fit to hold a FAC)
my FAC came through without any hitches
i dont know what i am trying to say by posting this up , its just my experience of depression and licencing
it was in the summer of 2009 that my daughter , leigh contracted rotavirus whilst in hospital , what follow was 8 weeks of sheer hell as she slowly went down hill in yorkhill intensive care unit in glasgow , at one piont the doctor was talking of a 15% chance of survival and asking about consent to revive ,,
slowly but surely leigh turned a corner and 12 weeks after she was admitted to hospital she was allowed home, now during this time i didnt work, susan didnt either , and as you would expect ,bill mounted up and there was no money coming in , funnily enough at the time when leigh was in hospital i wasnt depressed , worried yes but depressed no , this came later when things were better , leigh was back at school and we were back at work ,
rerunning things in my mind , and fretting that it would happen again i got lower and lower , and of course i would hide this from everyone , instead id take the landrover to the remotest part of the farm and cry my eyes out for hours , only to return home as if everything was normal , i knew i needed help but i was afraid they would take my guns from me , i dont drink or smoke , my shooting and the countryside are my only vices,
this went on for months till one day i broke down at work and again at home , and susan called our doctor who saw me right away , i remember sitting down and telling her that i didnt want to hurt myself , or anyone else but i wasnt coping very well , she asked me a few questions and said i was suffering from depression and prescribed some pills which i took for 6 months and then was slowly weaned off them ,
now this all happened mid term on my fac , two years later it came up for renewal ,and of course i told them everything , the civvy who came to do my interview gave me some raised eyebrows when i told her, i even went and saw my doctor about it , ( she said she had no hesitation in saying i was fit to hold a FAC)
my FAC came through without any hitches
i dont know what i am trying to say by posting this up , its just my experience of depression and licencing
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