It is all good gamegunner in the sense that although you did ask a question which had people either thinking you were extracting some urine or were about to kill yourself the end result has been that you have the attention of all the very skilled people who post in this forum, plus myself. That can only be a good thing as you now have a lot of top quality info on tap for the asking and, as suggested, you should post any questions you might have.
I'm a beginner at this myself and so can remember how complicated it all seemed at the start and it is difficult to find your feet. It is also the case that things that one person finds simple might appear confusing to another until they take a little time to get it explained to them.
I am of the view that it is worth getting someone to show you the ropes and you might find a shooting friend or even the owner of a local gun shop willing to let you watch them reload while they explain the process. Even half an hour would be worth more than all the books. The process isn't too complex or difficult but it is very safety critical so you need to slow down a little and consider that even a small misunderstanding or mistake could cause death or injury. I'm like you and just love to forge ahead and get things done and get to see the end result but with the reloading it really is better to take it slow and easy. If you know you have the sort of nature that can make you very keen then you need to be doubly careful and make an extra effort to slow down, check the facts and ensure you load good, safe ammo.
Several people have asked where you live and if I were you I'd get that information (just the general area, not your full address!) up here pretty sharpish as you might land yourself an invitation along to someone's house for some tea, biscuits and reloading.