It's a sad situation and I feel for your loss. I had my 10 year old Springer Holly put to sleep last week.
For reasons I won't go into here I had to make a decision that was seven years in the making and I feel absolutely awful for doing it and like I let her down. Everyone has said I did the right thing and it was the best for all but I can't escape that nagging feeling that perhaps I should've done something different, maybe looked things differently and she would still be with me but I can't change it now and will live with that forever.
Being upset is normal for anyone who loves and appreciates their friends and companions. There is no shame in admitting crying over the loss of a loved one. I couldn't stop as I buried her last Sunday. I just hope she forgives me and is in a happier place now.
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....